PRIVATE!!!!

Hmm...i sit in the choir lobby with my friends playing Catchphrase. They are coming up with incredible ideas. For example: a bug that throws trash on the ground Answer: Litterbug

Isn't that clever? i thought so. Griff, Dom, and I seem to be sitting kind of lost at the moment. uhm... i am hearing many random things going on. I am also sensing a lot of tension at the moment. lol. my arm is sore and my foot is still numb from freezing for fifteen minutes.

ya know. I absolutely love my friends, but sometimes I feel like i don't fit in. Ya know? *sigh* like now. I am sitting alone behind them playing with my laptop pretty dang bored. But the rest of my friends are having a hoot with the game. I mean, if they read this i'm sure they will be all sympathetic and i REALLY don't want them to cause thatll make me feel bad for writing this, but ya know? i can't think of anything else and this helps me vent so that in fifty minutes I won't explode. Do ya understand??? *sigh*

Now my arm hurts....I keep having reruns of life when my great grandmother was still alive. Somehow i was so much more perky then...now she's gone and I have changed so much...I guess she was the one thing that kept me down to earth. understand? oh well....i am trying to think of something really optimistic or hysterical or something to write. lets seee.....'


I HAVE A BOYFRIEND! HUZZAH! man he's awesome. luv him sooo much. Now if only i saw him more...we never see each other than like five minutes each day. and i am so busy i never have time on the weekends. i feel so bad. and he texts me constantly which i find adorable...but idk...i just feel bad like i leave him out. I don't wanna be one of those girls who dumps all her friends for her boyfriend then goes running back when they break up. but i also dont wanna be one of those girls who spends more time with her friends than her boyfriend...y can't there be a win win??? gah...oh well! :-)

I reeeeaaaallllyyyy hope none of my friends are reading this. they are just gonna try to give me advice and i'm gonna feel bad and ya know... i have this theory that i'm the therapist of the group and am a pretty good one at that...at least i try. I don't wanna be mean, but on occasion i feel like the mother. then again i'm sure some of the others do to...like when theyre reading my PRIVATE BLOG!! HENCE THE TITAL PRIVATE!!!!! well...guess it's too late now. please do NOT try to help me with my issues...if i need help i will ask. i promise. just...please don't act all sympathetic. thats what i have my memories of Great Grandma Fran for. She was my sympathetic adorable perfect great grandmother who i loved dearly. *sigh* well...hope this wasn't too dull for you. love ya all.

~brianna.